It has been a while and I may have started another blog too in between.
The little boy in my previous jot downs is now a teenager. He is still my baby though and not yet an irritating teenager. The arguments have started , he ridicules our roots and culture and is very conscious of having smelly Indian food if he is going out. He does not like cheap graphic t-shirts anymore and has started to be brand conscious. He has been going for tennis lessons since a while and it has made me poor not only because it is expensive but only because he only wears the brand "Lacoste". His grades are good but he does not open his books after school or do any extra work which scares me because I see me in him.
Over the years, TH has changed a lot. He has mellowed down, does not lose his temper much and helps me with the household chores. What brought about the changes? I think the relocation to US and the absence of his parents from our day to day lives may have done the magic.
And me. I am more restless than I ever was. That may be why I opened the blog today to write and calm me down. I diagnosed myself to be hyperactive (ADHD ?) . Or it could be the overuse of technology that masquerades as ADHD. I think not though. I used to wonder how my in laws sleep or rest all the time while I had to be doing something always. Maybe this is the answer. Maybe it is me and not them.
I tried to get over my "squirrel"-ness by stopping all social media and then I stopped reading coz I was always engrossed in my novels. Didn't help. Instead I can't read now and I am as restless as ever.
At work, I quit my job and joined elsewhere which was great but did not work coz of some unforeseen reasons. Then joined another where I am struggling now coz it is so different than what I am used to and I get no help. I hope I do well here. I did not restart my fiction reading spree coz I wanted to concentrate on learning for work. But now, I am in the middle of nowhere.
Hoping to kickstart the writing and hope that it calms me down. Gives me some peace and satisfaction.
